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they fell n love didnt they?
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[Thursday
10:12am March 30th] |
"It's really painful to say goodbye to someone else that you don't want to let go, but it's even more painful to ask someone to stay if you can never make the relationship work out the way it should."
“and I know I will be fine, it’s not like the other times I’ve broken up with boyfriends, when I’ve been so heartbroken I’ve cried solidly for about three weeks and not wanted to go anywhere or do anything. Okay, I had that one night from hell, but since then I’ve been really okay, and at least I know there’s no point living on false hope. At least I know it really is over so I can move on. But I have to say that this time I feel a bit numb, still in a state of shock, really, although I don’t feel that my world has ended, not completely. I suppose that the light at the end of the tunnel, though not very bright, is at least still there. They say that it never hurts as much after the first time, and I suppose there’s an element of truth in that, but they also say that every time you get hurt the barriers go up a little big higher and you end up being hard and cynical, and not giving anything to anyone."
Let me get this straight.
You know her. She knows you.
But she wants to eat him.
And everybody's okay with this?
DID I MISS SOMETHING?
she wanted something else. something different.
something more. passion & romance, perhaps.
or maybe quiet conversations in a candle lit room,
or maybe, it was something as simple as
not always being second in his heart.
and it`s two feet on the dashboard
young love in an old ford
cheap shades and a tattoo
and a yahoo bottle on the floorboard
perfect song on the radio, sing along
cause it`s the only one we know
it`s a smile, it`s a kiss, it`s a sip of wine
it`s summertime, sweet summertime ♥
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[Monday
2:29pm March 6th] |
I think the first time that we said something funny,
And we fell to the ground almost peeing our pants,
We pretty much knew we were going to be
Best friends.
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[Monday
2:20pm March 6th] |
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Want to know what I think love is? Jumping in puddles & getting wet pants & numb feet. Walking around arguing where to go when all you really want to do is go home & watch TV together. Pillow fights and trying to cheat to beat the stronger person. Pouting just so you can get an 'I'm sorry' kiss. Laughing until your stomach hurts. Pretending that touching your knee tickles, just so he'll keep doing it. Laying there listening to his heartbeat. Making fun of people's driving when they're really just driving normal. Opening car doors, or cracking a joke on not opening car doors. Driving 30 MPH on a highway because of fog.
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[Monday
2:13pm March 6th] |
Lets get lucky on this blissful Irish night
I’ve got a few in me
& everything gets better in drunken eyes.
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[Friday
2:18pm February 24th] |
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age aint nothing but a number, it doesnt wait for you to be ready, or for you to be old enough, it just happens & if you play your cards right you'll win everytime, screw what the world thinks love is no one can define love whether he's a month older than you or 5 years older, treasure what you have & don't let anyone take it away.
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[Wednesday
1:49pm February 22nd] |
ACROSS FIVE APRILS LYRICS
"A Year From Now"
Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours,
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But will never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I would have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real,
You said they were,
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm just sorry that it wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember these things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said is in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
100 facts
1. Jessica Rena Vaughn is my favorite person to spend time with on the beach.
2. I don’t believe in forever
3. There’s only one person in the world you can tell everything and anything to, I no longer have that person.
4. My favorite color is blue.
5. I have two of the cutest dogs on earth.
6. I consider my mom one of my best friends.
7. I have my ears and nose pierced
8. I still talk to a few of my elementary friends.
9. Me and Augie go way back.
10. I use to baby-sit Jessica.
11. I still have plans to go to Florida for college.
12. I plan on going to spring break this year in Florida with the best friend ever.
13. I love mac n cheese but I don’t eat it as much as I use to.
14. In the movie the fox in the hound, im considered the fox. and i guess u can really say the hound did die in this friendship too.
15. me and Kurtis use to be best friends, but now we don’t even talk, and when I think bout it its hard to believe that we were best friends.
16. I love plain white t’s
17. shopping is my stress reliever
18. Im allergic to cats.
19. I’m in love with Anthony Adam Milbourn.
20. I only dated one person in 6th grade. Ryan Loe. .
21. I’m addicted to One Tree Hill.
22. I love buying purses.
23. I don’t talk to half the people I did last year.
24. My past makes me hold off on a lot of things, such as doing certain things because im scared itll be the same outcome.
25. I wish I could erase past mistakes.
26. I wish some people werent overly possessive.
27. My dog ran into my knee. And now I might have to get surgery.
28. I want a new purse
ill finish later
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[Tuesday
2:29pm February 7th] |
If we met tomorrow for the very first time
would it start all over again?
would I try to make you mine?
im not ready to give up
on you yet because i know
you havent given up on me
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[Tuesday
8:19am January 10th] |
its the moments when you're wearing his hoodie
and blasting the mix he made you while reading old notes
that you realize all he gave you was worth the fight
worth the cry - in the end
So everyone changes. And yeah i've changed too. But tell me, how can you go through fake friends, lies, heartbreaks, pain and not be affected by it?
I guess in some scense I use the alchohol to justify my actions. I can be like "oh, but I was so drunk" and everyone just gives a little smile and nods, like they understand my justification. It makes it so my mistakes arn't really mistakes, theres a reason for them because of the alchohol that is in my system at the time.
And even though I know he's a jerk and I know all that he'll do is hurt me, I still love him. I still want him. And I hate myself for it...
Ikindasortamaybelovehim
a while ago we were complete strangers
now look at us, we can't live without each other.
& please, promise me you`ll be the one boy
who doesn`t turn out like the rest.
anthony adam milbourn. <3 u are the greatest. ever. and ur simply more then amazing.
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[Friday
7:43am January 6th] |
I couldnt let you see
my crying eyes. . . .
but i wanted so bad to run to you
its scary to think how different ur life
would be if u never met that person ;
that changed // e v e r y t h i n g //
Its not like I want to spend my life with him. Instead of fantasizing about marrying him, I fantasize about a clean ending. Where were not fighting over who owns the stereo.
Serious as a heart attack
I'm looking in my almanac
^(i love that song)
the bottle said pain reliever
so she swallowed all the pills
it was her final attempt to fix a broken heart (im not going through that but i just thought it was a good quote)
♥
once u find something goood
dont got looking for something better
paradise can't exist without youu
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[Tuesday
1:46pm December 20th] |
Now that I'm grown I've seen marriages fall to pieces.
Now that I'm grown I've seen friendships fall to pieces.
Weekend warriors, and our best friends.
The writers weren't kidding about how all good things must end.
Then again some things, then again some things are far too good,
Some things are far too good to go ahead and let go.
^(down and out) the academy is...
Oh, well imagine, as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor,
and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words:
"What a beautiful wedding! What a beautiful wedding!" says a bridesmaid to a waiter.
"And yes, but what a shame, what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore."
I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of...
^ Panic! at the disco (i write sins not tragdies)
Hooray for the madness, we are better by design,
Let's hope we'll never have to say goodbye..
Say goodbye.
Snowed in sleep over winter break,
Cocktails and miniature mistakes,
Lights out, we're covered in each others' warm embrace..
^ motion city soundtrack.. make out kids
Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
^motion city soundtrack... everything is alright
"Attractive Today" motion city soundtrack.(i liked the whole song.)
I am wrecked. I am overblown.
I am also fed up with the common cold.
But I just hate to say goodbye
To all the metaphors and lies
That have taken me years to come up with.
Say it's true. Say you like me.
(I like you.)
Just for the night.
for me, it's been eternity..
And as I gently sip this drink,
I think about my lack of future,
And all the places I could learn to fall in love.
I know I shouldn't waste my time,
Wishing I'd been better designed,
yet for some reason still think
I am wrecked. I am overblown.
I am also fed up with the fucking common cold!
When I just want to feel alive for the first time in my life,
I just want to feel attractive today.
Tiny hands, recycled cans, the metal bands I could not stand..
The time you cried and threw your crayons across the floor... (time turned fragile) motion city soundtrack.
You call me in the middle of the night
So drunk you're ready to pass out
Tellin' me you had a great time
Except for that hour you blacked out
Now you're surprised that I'm pissed
you think I'm acting all tough
Well I think you're acting like a bitch
And I swear this time I've had enough
And it's not ok and it's not alright
You can't fool me, so don't even try
And it's not ok and it's not alright
What have you been doing with those guys all night?
^plz dont do this ... plain white t's
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did ^ a lonely september.. Plain white t's
but it's just another one of those days
the way you made it all feel so right
the way you fit into my arms at night
i'll remember that feeling for the rest of my life
^cinderalla story. plain white t's
PLAIN WHITE T's "Fireworks"
Well I don't mind waiting 'til you're comfortable with me
But what's it gonna take to prove that I'm for real?
'Cause you know how I feel about you
You know I can't live without you
I just wanna stay and make it real
'Cause I know, you know
it can't get much better
Fireworks flyin' whenever we're together
I know, you know, that I know you love me
Well I've made up my mind that I want you to be the one
The one I wanna be with when I'm ninety-two
I just wanna feel you tonight
making sure the moment's just right
I could die just staring in your eyes
I just wanna feel your heartbeat
hold you even closer to me
Fall asleep with you right by my side
We'll see fireworks tonight
I've waited all my life to make this perfect every way
And sharing it with you would make it even more than that
We'll see fireworks tonight
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[Friday
7:44am December 16th] |
i will dig a whole && label it love
and trick him to fall in from above.
Some things won't be the
same, because they will be
better." .
i never thought i'd risk the chance
of being hurt again
but when i'm with you it all seems worth it
"It's the girls that you can party w/ until 4 in the morning; it's the girls that you can laugh about the previous nights festivities w/ the next morning; it's the girls that you can drive w/ dancing & singing at the top of your lungs without holding back; it's the girls that you can talk about the most random stupid stuff one minute & have the most serious conversation the next; it's the girls that back you up no matter what; it's the girls that smile w/ you when you are happy; it's the girls that cry w/ you when you are sad; it's the girls that make the days that seem dark so much brighter; yeah, it's THOSE girls."
Its weird... You always tell yourself when you like some one you won't end up like the typical girl. You won't let yourself become so involved you let them slowly become your world and that you won't fall so hard it hurts when it finally comes time to say goodbye. You convince yourself that you know it will end eventually. But the truth is when your in love you forget all about the rules you've set for yourself
You're slower than a herd of turtles stampeding through peanut butter.
“That first kiss, it's the passionate one... the one filled by desire and attraction and all that but, the second kiss is rational- you got time to think about it, worry, and over analyze... most women pick the first kiss, but I'm partial to the 2nd one, cause it's about something more.”- Dawson's CreeK
he's the kind of guy that makes you love your name just because he said it.
I’ve never fallen for a guy like you before
I’ve never fallen for a guy that smiles at me
When I see him in the halls, or yells out my
Name in a loud room.. or one who can make
Me laugh at the stupidest things or keeps me
Tossing & turning all night, wondering what I
Should do about you.. I’ve never fallen for a sweetheart ♥
I want someone who'll kiss the tip of my nose when it's snowing outside and pull my cold hands out of my pockets and into his. I want candid polaroids. And hand-picked flowers for no reason. And long drives in the summer with the windows rolled down and our favorite songs blaring on the radio. I want to walk in comfortable silence. And to dance with or without music playing. I want genuine conversations underneath the stars. And to fall asleep on someone's shoulder and wake up next to them. And to just.. be."
Everyone can reach back to one summer and lay a finger on it,
finding the exact point when everything changed.*DJGS*
Life is about those hot summer nights with the sand in between your toes and the smiles on your face. Its about comfy couches, rainy days, and late night talks & drives. Its about top down rides, wind in your face, hook ups, and friends. Those moments youve never felt so alive. Its about finding someone to hold onto and knowing they're holding on too. Its about flirty looks, holding hands, pressing lips, exchanging numbers, and laughing until you cry. Its about giving it your best, taking chances, going to the extremes, and having NO regrets what so ever. Life isnt just about the destination;
BUT THE JOURNEY THAT GETS US THERE <3
It's so distracting always thinking of you.
Baby don't go it looks like it's starting to rain
And it's so warm here in this apartment wrapped up in this blanket
So stay
hmm. new years is coming up i think one of my few resoultions is to stop being so paranoid all the damn time...
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[Wednesday
8:30am December 14th] |
 Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
In July I farted in an elevator (-6 points). In June I punched ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) 9_xbrokenx_26 in the arm (-10 points). In September I stole chsviolinist07's purse (-30 points). In November I pushed jessagirlly878 in the mud (-17 points). Last week I gave pesknutz a kidney (1000 points).
Overall, I've been nice (937 points). For Christmas I deserve a new dolly!
Sincerely,
lilashes07chs |
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[Wednesday
8:07am December 14th] |
WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may lead you to believe that ex-lovers are really dying for you to telephone them at 4 in the morning
you'll make this a christmas to remember
springtime feelings in the middle of december
No one's telling me this thing is gonna work. No one's telling me what we have will last, or that anything we experience will be easy. Nothing tells me that it's the right thing to do, or that my heart won't break in the end. The voice in my head tells me not to let go, cause once I do, there's nothing left to break my fall. But for once in my life, the only thing that matters is the one thing that's telling me to take a chance, make the risk, and forget the rules...my heart.
i'm afraid of getting everything i've ever wanted, because where do you go from there.
These days
Cause every time we touch I get this feeling…
And every time we kiss I swear I can fly
Can’t you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last… I need you by my side
&&give me that sweet smile of yours, it makes my heart smile.
the word “like” is stronger than the word “love”.
aam :).
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[Friday
10:37am December 9th] |
The Jerry Springer Show : Episode 627 : "Marriage Meltdown!"
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[The crowd starts chanting "Jerry! Jerry! Jerry!"]
Jerry: Tonight on "The Jerry Springer Show" we have a particularly interesting episode! ashley is here to finally confess something to a long-time friend, jessica. So everyone, please put your hands together for ashley!
[The crowd whoops and hollers]
Jerry: Okay, now ashley you're here to talk about someone aren't you?
You: Yes.
Jerry: And what is this other person's name?
You: anthony.
[The crowd squeals with delight]
Jerry: Okay, okay, well anthony, is actually here tonight ...
[The crowd squeals]
Jerry: But first we have a surprise for you ashley, because as it happens there is someone else here to see you! So let's bring out ... alex!
You: What the HELL!!!
[Out of nowhere you pull out a knife. alex reaches for the couch. Out of the shadows aaron appears]
aaron: Wait everybody, wait!
Jerry: Yes, everybody let's just calm down for a moment here. First, tell us why you're here alex.
alex: Because I saw ashley and aaron making out at walmart!
[The crowd goes absolutely insane]
aaron: That's a lie! I was home watching will n grace!
Jerry: [raising his hands] Hold on, hold on, I'm missing the problem here ... what exactly is the problem alex?
alex: Because I've recently been taking part in a sexual relationship with jessica who has recently become engaged to aaron.
[The crowd hollers, screams and whoops in an orchestra of orgasmic excitement]
Jerry: Okay, okay. Well why don't we bring jessica out here because ashley had something that they needed to tell them anyway about ... anthony that's right!
jessica: [enters onto stage and saunters over towards you] What's the deal? I saw you outside getting it on with anthony! You know how I feel about anthony!
aaron: [screams] What? Why the hell did you ask me to marry you if you're in love with anthony!
jessica: Because I knew that I could never have anthony. But ashley promised me that they'd never hook up out of respect for my feelings!
aaron: What about respect for my feelings!
[alex walks suddenly across the stage, embracing jessica]
alex: Don't worry baby, you don't need any of them now that you have me.
[Again the crowd squeals]
aaron: Oh my God! Are you sick!?
[aaron runs across the room and wraps their arms around you tightly]
aaron: ashley take me away from all of this!
You: You see? That's the thing ... I'm ... well, I'm married ...
[The crowd does its bit]
aaron: Married?
[You nod]
aaron: Who the hell are you married to? When ... when did this happen? I don't understand!
You: The other day. In Vegas. I'm married to anthony.
jessica: [screaming] WHAT!!!
Jerry: [grinning widely, makes an enquiry] So ... did you have a nice wedding night?
anthony: [stepping back out onto center stage] Well we had sex 7 times if that's what you mean.
[The crowd squeals]
Jerry: Okay, okay. So let me get this all straight ... ashley is married to anthony who jessica has secretly been in love with for years and years. Now jessica has recently become engaged to aaron who was recently spotted kissing ashley in walmart. Now on top of this, alex has just admitted to being in a sexual relationship with jessica.
anthony: That's right Jerry.
Jerry: [looking sternly into the camera] It's times like these that one has to wonder whether or not these people are aware that they are quite clinically insane. Perhaps we should be spending more on psychiatric health funds in this country, perhaps we should just ban Vegas to cut down on impulse marriages. Perhaps I should get a new job. Thanks for watching folks - it's been great - but for now, take care of yourselves ... and each other.
[Cue cheesy background music and fade to black]
ya so... i def. am now married to my love anthony :)
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[Tuesday
8:12am December 6th] |
"you know one day your gonna meet the guy that makes you realize why it never worked out with anyone else"
i think i met that guy. :)
wow... life just seems way to great right bout now... i love being with him. i just wish that we could spend more then only 2 days a week together... hopefully thatll change.
i love the best friend jessica, and i miss our long walks on the boardwalk talking n then sitting on those beach chairs on the beach late at night eating ice cream talking bout how we want that perfect guy... hopefully i just found mine... i miss those times.
--ashley.
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[Monday
8:17am November 28th] |
wow. i just had this long update but i accidently exited out of it instead of the one i was trying too...
so im just going to update n 8th hour cuz i hvae like 15 mins left of this class...
im soo exteremely happy and i love every bit of it :)
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[Tuesday
7:45am November 22nd] |
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the winter is comming
& its a harsh one this year.
get the gin and vodka were gonna stay warm together.
last night, i had a dream
that i went to the beach & fell in love
and this morning, i woke up
with sand in my shoes and a seashell
in my pocket. ( i miss summer of 05')
I dont know what you did
but you got me to fall for you
Nearly everybody gets twitterpatted in the springtime. You get weak in the knees. Your head starts to whirl. Before you know it, you're knocked for a loop. -Bambi
I look at him and he looks back at me with his beautiful eyes, smiles, and it pathetically makes my day
Immobilized by the thought of you
Paralyzed by the sight of you
Hypnotized by the words you say
-Maroon 5
I can't stop thinking about him, and the truth is, I don't want to stop thinking about him 'cause when I think about him, I'm happy
I've got a
Mind boggling
Sense numbing
Heart pounding
Stomach flipping
Take my breath away
Head over heals
Knee shaking
Daydreaming
Butterfly fluttering
Crush on you
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[Friday
7:52am November 18th] |
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Mouth: Give me regret as long as I can keep the good memories too. We all have regrets, Peyton. But some of us still have time to erase them.
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[Friday
7:39am November 18th] |
well tuesday i hung out with sheldon. wed. night i went to the movies with jess n ryan to see SAW 2. and then last night i went to eat with kurtis. he had taco johns n then we both had baskin robbins. hes weird n got a sundae with bubble gum ice cream n vanilla. n then tonight im hanging out with jessica and prolly kurtis. then tomorrow night im hanging out with kelsie n kalif... notice i dont get to hang out with anthony again? ya it sucks... oh well.. wed. is an early out cuz of thanksgiving break so thats good :) maybe hell hang out then.. who knows...
It's amazing how all this can be happening. I mean, my whole life is falling apart & yet, every time i talk to him, i stop feeling sorry for myself, & i begin to smile.. he always has that effect over me
it`s like half of me really wants to be with him,
& the other half just wants me to be over him.
-- laguna beach --
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[Monday
7:37am November 14th] |
a few quotes...
show me some .l.o.v.e.
-strip- off your [clothes]
and take off your \s\o\c\k\s\
Getting d.r.u.n.k is like being in love. You know it may hurt later on, but u do it anyways. It changes ur outlook on life; it can also make you cry. They both make you say- "i'm n e v e r doing that again," knowing full well that you will...*
I wish people's thoughts ran across their foreheads in one of those digital banners. It would take away the what-ifs?...
i hope you catch something
terribly contagious from her
well this weekend was alright, friday night i hung out w/kels n jenny and saturday night i hung out with jess n a few guys n then sunday hung out w/jess downtown. went out to eat n saw rollarbladers and then walked around downtown 4ever. then we found a spot were we think well find some hot skater boys n the future. tomorrow im hanging out with sheldon cuz i havent n 4ever.and i think ill be needing to ask anthony if he wants to hang out friday night cuz i think my mom will be gone again. if so then jess is coming n josh is. and then lawhon might if his g/f lets him...haha. then saturday night im hanging out with jenny n kelsie i think. im not totally sure. my weekends are always confusing and never are right.
i just hope i get to hang out with that cute kid that i like :) and of course that loser jessica but i always do so no worries there. i feel like shopping. i love shopping. yup. thats my random comment of the day. :)
im going now 4th hour is almmost over. i might update again n marketing if i get that bored.
comments?!
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